what is anyone really thinking?

nobody ever really knows.

sometimes, my thoughts go so quickly. i forget before i even can try to remember.

sometimes i think that it's better that way.

giver.

how much do you give until you give too much?

i hadn't even thought i crossed the line.

seems as if there's such a fine line between selfish and selfless.

it's not even just material things.. the things that money can and can't buy.

i thought i tried to give it all. but now i'm wondering, why the fuck did i risk it all?

if not all, a lot... just for love.

because i thought,

i think...

that most of the time it's worth it

so, they say...

love can make you do crazy things.

yeah.

the longest drive home.

i can't stop thinking.

things are not the way i want them to be.

they haven't been,

but i've been trying to deal with them.

love can make you feel and do the craziest things.

sometimes i forget who i am now...i thought i knew exactly.

but times like these i feel so, so confused.

and what we're doing seems to be so CRAZY.

i can't help it. i can't change it. things are so different... and not the kind of different i wanted.

it seems as if we pushed it so far for "love."

But what is love?

if it makes others so angry at us for being in "love" then maybe we shouldn't.

we really shouldn't.

it's insane that i should even care about what others think.

im angry because i can't be selfish about the one i love.

im upset because the one that i love can't fight for me.

i'm torn between the one i love and the life i want.

too bad. so sad.