Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Letting it out of my hands!

Oh man.. today and tonight has been a huge relief. I actually feel like I'm moving forward and letting the chips fall where they may. I know what I'm worth.. I know what I wanna do. I know how I gotta get there... Two more weeks of school and three weeks of work.. I'm about to make it fuckin RAIN! I just gotta stay focused and motivated. I feel great right now.

Thank you. Universe... God.. whoever is out there helpin me out right now. I'm glad I have had faith in the process even though it's been hard.. I'm beginning to see the road ahead of me.


Good luck to anybody out there that is trying to find it. Keep searching... Life is full of many many surprises. & always remember... Life is a journey, not a destination.

Friday, November 18, 2011

Be great.

Never settle for anything less than what you deserve.
Always shine at your brightest & know your worth.

That's it for today (:

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Think you know somebody.

The thing is that we're always changing. One second you think you know somebody and the next second you're questioning all their motives. It's been hard to me to draw the fine line between us and it sucks that I've put myself in a position where I just end up being more and more hurt because I don't know this person you've become. I thought that we were closer and had the ability to be more honest with each other but the truth is we're not. I know I shouldn't have expected something from nothing but at the time I just didn't believe that it was nothing. I guess this is where I finally draw the line because it's clear now what is really going on. I don't think we will ever really get over these loose or frayed ends because we created them. It is what it is though and I will learn to let go of it all and let it remain where it is. I know that time will heal all and that this will all in all give me wisdom and strength to be a better person. I feel it and I know this is true and I hope that in time comes a chance for me to be happy again with somebody new. I'm not going to spend any more time hoping for a loss cause. I am going to accept that I miss you, accept that things were real at one point and now they're not. I'm not going to try to make you see it anymore because it's only hurting me and that's not fair. My life is full of blessings and so many different things that I need to be focusing on rather than a faded memory of you & I. If you're not willing to make anything work, not even a friendship, then neither will I. Why would I want to sacrifice anything for your happiness when it's just tearing apart mine? Fuck that. Fuck this. I missed you time and time again, but this is really the end. Goodbye, fairweather friend.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Whoa.

You had me thinking that it was all my fault and that I was the one that needed to change....
but now I'm beginning to feel like you were the one that changed.

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We are always growing & I guess we just grew apart. It's sad that I don't know why I didn't see it before... or love made me believe that it was something that it wasn't anymore. Why does love do that? I'm beginning to feel like I'm not a fan. I honestly believe at this moment, right now that being single is what I need. I feel like I'm finally coming to terms (finally!) with what is going on... Took long enough but at the same I feel like it went by pretty fast. I can't believe it's been a few months since all these drastic changes were made in my life. I think I'm doing pretty well for what I'm doing.. I could always be doing better, but that's just how life goes. At least I'm moving... now I just gotta continue on and try to strive higher on that road to success along that path of happiness.

Always getting higher.