what comes, what goes.

Growing up is all about being confused. I wouldn't believe anybody who claims they've got it all figured out. I think about challenges and the times we can't help the way our feelings are. Sometimes we trick ourselves, lie to ourselves, try to make ourselves feel better.

Trying to stay away from this unforbidden fruit.

fake vs. ___________

i will never understand why people try to act like they've been doing something longer than they really have or liking something longer than they really have. what is the freaking point of being fake about it? i can accept that people may change and things may change.. a lot. but i will never understand why people think that they need to act like they know it all about everything, when they don't. it's like.. okay i don't really care if you're all into raving now. but you don't have to act like you've been doing it for years and shit blahblahblah, make up a story about how LONG you've been raving. it doesn't matterrrrr. and then i love how people will hate on things that they used to be. yeeeeeah, i could seriously go on forever. i get that people can laugh at themselves, but why be ashamed of something that you once were/liked/enjoyed? i know all of us must be really searching for ourselves, but i feel like a lot of us get sooo caught up in image and self-representation that we forget about who we really are.

and that just sucks.

what is the point of being fake or placing yourself above others? in the end insecurities will always be there, so just be real. be yourself. there is nobody else.

*SMACKS FOREHEAD*

I don't even know how I let my insecurities get in the way TWICE today. I am a beautiful carefree & worthwhile little butterfly & my purpose is to love and accept myself unconditionally while living each day to the fullest. <3

I can be such a fool sometimes.. I know I'm not perfect, but I am learning all the time.

Middle finger to my insecurities. forreal. what the fuuuuu*

questionable?

don't you hate to make something out of nothing?

but what makes something, something & nothing, nothing?

sometimes my mind wanders-- and i have to go find it & bring it back.

i don't have to worry.

right?

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ooooooh! life!

are you on dope? Yes.

what kind? musical dope.

do you get high? Yes.

off of what? music.

are you on a trip or something? Yes.

what kind of a trip? music.

* * * *

sometimes life can be so freakin' unexpected.

i kinda like it though.

(:

not like this is any new news.. but i need a job. lol.

who do you think i think i am?

nobody is ever gonna stop talking.. so i'm gonna keep being me & you should keep being you.

sometimes things are said that sting or hurt. not everybody realizes the impact of their words. at the same time, things should never be taken personally. the only thing personal is your self.

remember that.

& the early bird gets the worm.

Ready or not.

Here I come.

BE.

i've realized the happiest i ever am is when i'm doing what i want and when i don't feel like i'm compelled to do what others want or what i'm expected to be. i don't want to be like anyone else. i want to stand out. i remember as a kid, i always wanted to blend in.. people would say that it was good to be unique, but i just thought that was the most ridiculous thing ever. it's crazy to think how i did not want to be in my own skin at all. as corny as it may sound, when i remember how much i used to hate myself, it makes me love myself that much more. i don't think anybody really realizes how their insecurities may have gotten in the way of living life. i feel like i've come a long way, even if i still have a ways to go. i'm proud of who i've become, and who i'm becoming. i may not be perfect, and i may not be exactly who i wanted to be when i was a little girl. i'm becoming exactly who i should be.

me.

butterfly<3