Think you know somebody.

The thing is that we're always changing. One second you think you know somebody and the next second you're questioning all their motives. It's been hard to me to draw the fine line between us and it sucks that I've put myself in a position where I just end up being more and more hurt because I don't know this person you've become. I thought that we were closer and had the ability to be more honest with each other but the truth is we're not. I know I shouldn't have expected something from nothing but at the time I just didn't believe that it was nothing. I guess this is where I finally draw the line because it's clear now what is really going on. I don't think we will ever really get over these loose or frayed ends because we created them. It is what it is though and I will learn to let go of it all and let it remain where it is. I know that time will heal all and that this will all in all give me wisdom and strength to be a better person. I feel it and I know this is true and I hope that in time comes a chance for me to be happy again with somebody new. I'm not going to spend any more time hoping for a loss cause. I am going to accept that I miss you, accept that things were real at one point and now they're not. I'm not going to try to make you see it anymore because it's only hurting me and that's not fair. My life is full of blessings and so many different things that I need to be focusing on rather than a faded memory of you & I. If you're not willing to make anything work, not even a friendship, then neither will I. Why would I want to sacrifice anything for your happiness when it's just tearing apart mine? Fuck that. Fuck this. I missed you time and time again, but this is really the end. Goodbye, fairweather friend.