this way.

This is the way things should be.

Endless conversations with my two best friends in the world.
Me+YOU!
La musica.
Highlife.

All the time.



<3

so off.

So im just gonna be completely honest. My life has become so routine and in the worst way ever. I expect everything and nothing that I expect is what I truly want. According to the law of attraction/the secret, I could change this but I can feel my hope&faith fluctuating. I can't see through to him anymore. My days will go just like this:
I try not to think about what has happened.
I try to keep myself busy.

But trying doesn't necessarily mean the action gets done.

A common pattern:
I fall asleep on my bed, with my clothes on, and the lights on.

A common thought:
I wish I never did that, I wish things could go back to the way they were.

A common interest:
Weed and music.

A common saying:
You never know what you really got, till it's gone.


What I say,
Doesn't really mean anything anymore, does it?
Is it just like a first grader reading words?

I was a happy little girl bouncing around.
Now im just a girl with no real smile to be found.


I never thought id grow up to the way I am.
But this is my life and I know I need to take accountability for my choices/responsibility for my actions.





Here I am, a weary heart and trembling hands, waiting for the words to leave your lips.

i feel as if,

a really big part of my life is missing...

on the brightside..!

my car was found, so i'll be getting that back :]

tomorrow.

sigh!

miss you allways.

fuck it.

you know the crossroad between persistence and giving up?

i'm closer to the edge.

i want to hold on so tight to something that i already know is falling apart.

have you ever believed something would work out even when nobody else did?

have you ever told the truth even though everybody else was telling you not to?

they say the truth will set you free but i feel trapped.

i think i subconsciously just love to self-sabotage anything good that happens to me in terms of relationships.

even when it seems different,

i always find a way to make it the same.

i have nothing left for you i guess.

eternal.

wishing this high would last forever;

i love it when we can feel music all around. it tingles through our bodies. we feel it in our veins, pumping through our hearts. our eyes shine. our feet tap. our heads move. we bounce. we smile. we love. lights all around. doot doot doot doo doo. everybody's dreams are coming true.

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tearing me apart.

i like to remember the way my life has been...

until the memories start tearing me apart.

i think that sometimes i begin to fall back on the past so much that i wish i was there instead of here. it's normal, right?  when does it come time to come back to reality: the way things really are now? have you ever thought back to one moment.. a few words.. a few seconds.. and wondered if that made all the difference?

i wonder if i went back to the times i wish i could,

if i would really be happy there.

..because don't we only miss things when they're not there anymore?

i look forward to a good cry.

je te laque.

do we have a misunderstanding?

i'm not sure the way we are communicating is the best right now.

the meaning of friends has been brought to my attention.

"friends" is not just a number on your myspace or facebook account.

i hope everyone realizes that by clicking "add as friend" does not qualify you as my friend.

really realizes.

getting fucked up with me every single time we see each other does not count either.

...do we even talk?!

1. you could talk about the same thing over and over and it wouldn't get old.

2. there are those things that we will forever laugh about and never forget.

3. there were those times we'd fight about nothing, but to us it was everything.