when everything begins to fall apart,

i'd rather try and pick up the pieces.

i'm not one for broken anything, if you know what i mean.

i know people may think that once something's broken you can't go and re-fix it...

but i am a firm believer in putting things back together--especially when it comes to family.

i know all my family wants is for me to be successful and live a wonderful life,

because who doesn't want that for themselves and their offspring?

but what i want, is for me to want things for myself.

i don't want to be doing things for my parents, let alone anyone else, for the rest of my life.. i know i'll get sick of it. i already have!

so today i went out and picked up job applications with brittany. i am going to fill them out tomorrow or within this week and go to Goldenwest to apply tomorrow.

i know my life has been ups and downs since i got home in august. it is much more than i thought i ever signed up for coming back into reality and the same, but different environment.

anyways yeah, one day i want to write it all out...but the unfortunate thing is, i don't think i remember all of it.

i love my life though. and i've been thanking whoever is out there insanely.

i am a lucky girl.

trying to get my life on track, once more.

i appreciate all of my friends who respect me and what i'm trying to do whenever i do..

forrrr real.

all.of.you.

oh yes, and he does bring a nice, big smile to my face! [:

:D